I lied,

I couldn't stay away from blogspot like I intended on doing so, and obviously, I didn't follow through. I've been pretty messed up lately. Let's just say that things are running smoothly for me and I wish I could do something about it, but I have no control over anything right now. Being the coward and chicken shit that I am, I can't. I'm trying so hard to do the best I can on focusing on school like I promised, but it's hard. I hate failing and later, regreting my decisions. It sucks and I hate myself for it. School and my family is my main priority right now, nothing else should be bothering. If I was to tell someone that, I'd be lying in an instant. Cause there's more to school and family...man. I'm disappointed at myself and probably one of the biggest disappointment to everyone else. I blame myself for trying in the beginning, when I already knew I wouldn't be able to handle it. Man, life sucks right now.

And on top of that, I need a second job. Just to occupy my summer, cause I know for sure that I don't want to work at the bank full time, that's just toooo much! And I think, I need to rejuvenate myself during my summer, so that I would be able to do much better for fall 2009. Ha, I haven't even registered for my classes yet :/

Me and girlfriend had our "boy" talks today :) Man, she sure as hell knows what they hell she's talking about and what we're both going through. Man, stupid tricks. Haha, I think it's just ridiculous at times, UGH.

Okay, I'm still debating if I should use this or my tumblr account, HAHA -_-