Contemplate,

So, I had a nice day, I guess? But man, I got myself with this shit pretty good. I had church service in the morning and got my nursery kids running all over the place. And OMG, it was so hot. I was sweating, and I felt so nasty. Thank god my sister helped me since he didn't come to church. Also, we went to waipahu today to visit the family. And funny thing was, all these stupid love songs we're playing on the radio. Fuck, "My Boo" by Usher and Alicia Keys played. I started reminiscing about my ex-ex-ex boyfriend when we used to sing that song on the phone together. Oh shit, I wanted to crack up in the car soooo bad, but I didn't want to look crazy laughing at myself in the car. Then, "Better in Time" by Leona Lewis played, and I was like shit...I ain't going to put myself back into memory lane again.

But once we got to my family's house, come to find out, my grandpa went back to the hospital. I wanted to cry again since it was worse than before, and really...what more can we do? But I got to play with my neice and watch this filipino love movie with my cousins for a while. After that, we headed to the hospital and took care of my grandpa for 3 hours, and went home. I wanted a goodbye, but he went to sleep. I snuggled him up and everything, and just left the room.