next to you - mike jones,

I haven't blogged in a while. So, tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Haha, so much for loosing weight. I'm excited to see family and friends. And eat (; but thanksgiving has made me realize a lot. Being home all day, I thought about all the things I'm thankful for. Not like when I was a little girl, I used to never look at things on the bright side. Always complaining about the things I never had. It's totally different now. I'm really thankful, thankful for every single thing that has enter upon my life. Even though things are as perfect as you want it to be, the things right in front of you is what really matters. I guess this is what the holidays do to me, contemplate. Even my birthday and christmas is coming up, and I'm pretty stoked. All my friends are asking me what I want for my birthday and really, I don't need anything at all. Just to have them is good enough [: My boyfriend especially, he's funny when it comes to that question. The other day, he kept bothering me about what I wanted cause he wanted to "spoil" me, since he hasn't for a great while. And I told him "As long as I have you baby, I don't need anything else." HAHA, and he got all out of hand cause I never answered his question ;P but hey, I was serious. I don't need anything at all. I'm not even going shopping on black friday. Due to the fact that I don't have any money with me since I haven't been working since my accident. I'd love to, with my own money, but poor thing :( Just cause it's the one day where everything is on SAAALE! Alright, just an update for you blogspotters. LATES <3

coldest winter - kanye west,

TWO HIGHLIGHTS FOR 2008, SO FAR:

the events that changed my life.

MAY 30, 2008: MOHS C/O 2008 GRADUATION. This was such a celebration, yet emotional. I remember crying once the ceremony was over. I saw my mom running toward me with leis and balloons. I grabbed her, hugged her, and thanked my mom with my tears as she cried too. It was so emotional, that we stayed like that for 10 minutes. If you don't know, my mom is my number one. She's been the lady from beginning to end and I couldn't do it without her. She's my hero and my role model. I don't have my father, but I have her. And as a single mother, she's doing it well. It made me realize how fast I grew up and that high school is actually over. It was amazing. I still can't believe it. In the picture above is my family ( my beautiful mom, me, my annoying little brother, my look-a-like sister, and my mom's boyfriend ).

OCTOBER 03, 2008: My car accident in Mapunapuna. Involved with myself as the driver, my sister and dog in the passengers seat. A wreckless driver smashed my 2000, honda civic by running a red light and going 50 mph on a 25 mph speed zone. For me, I sustained a broken pelvis (which is still healing), 8 stitches to the face, 1 stitch in the mouth, and black and blue bruised all over my body as a result of injury from this accident. My sister sustained a bruise to her left knee and a cut. And my dog, he's fine. He was happy the whole time with his tail wagging all over the place. Thank god I'm alive.

pray to the lord - lil wayne,

I'm going crazy about now, it's not even funny. So, I just had a fight with my boyfriend and we haven't had a fight for a long while now. But it decided to spark me up today. I'm just super irratated right now. I wanted to see him today, since thursday's aren't my so great schedules. But his mom didn't want him coming today. I mean, I know it's not his fault but for some reason, I just get so upset. On top of that, I constantly kept calling him because he never called me back, which twisted me more. Idk, but it seems like I'm being selfish right now. I try to understand, but at the same time, I just want to punch sometime in sight. On the other hand, at least he cares, unlike other boyfriends I know who usually can't see that something is wrong with their girls. Oh, it took a good three years for him to finally realize when something is wrong with me. He always wants to know, but I just can't tell him how I feel at times. It's so overwhelming, that I rather not say how I feel, cause usually, It'll make the problem bigger and bigger. I really need to work on this whole communication thing. I've lost it with him, and I don't want that. I want to be able to tell him everything, but to the point where he doesn't get upset. I just want him to understand. Maybe that's what's blocking me from opening up to him, cause I'm afraid. 

I'll get there, just give me sometime.