pray to the lord - lil wayne,

I'm going crazy about now, it's not even funny. So, I just had a fight with my boyfriend and we haven't had a fight for a long while now. But it decided to spark me up today. I'm just super irratated right now. I wanted to see him today, since thursday's aren't my so great schedules. But his mom didn't want him coming today. I mean, I know it's not his fault but for some reason, I just get so upset. On top of that, I constantly kept calling him because he never called me back, which twisted me more. Idk, but it seems like I'm being selfish right now. I try to understand, but at the same time, I just want to punch sometime in sight. On the other hand, at least he cares, unlike other boyfriends I know who usually can't see that something is wrong with their girls. Oh, it took a good three years for him to finally realize when something is wrong with me. He always wants to know, but I just can't tell him how I feel at times. It's so overwhelming, that I rather not say how I feel, cause usually, It'll make the problem bigger and bigger. I really need to work on this whole communication thing. I've lost it with him, and I don't want that. I want to be able to tell him everything, but to the point where he doesn't get upset. I just want him to understand. Maybe that's what's blocking me from opening up to him, cause I'm afraid. 

I'll get there, just give me sometime.