don't worry,

i've been trying to keep my head up high this week. it's been hard, but i'm managing. so, i started working again. and honestly, a college girl working at a bank is quite stressful. i totally forgot all of my duties on my first day back. it wasn't a smooth ride, but a learning experience. i should listen to my mom and not take it so negatively. i told my mom i wanted to quit, but i don't think she wants me too. although it's a good title and everything, it's just something that doesn't fit my forte.

other than that, school is getting there. the procrastination comes and goes, but i'm managing to take control of it. i've been getting my work done, one step at a time. but i really need to get it going since i only have a week and a half left of the semester. and yet, i still have so much to get done! i hope i pass my classes this semester. the break time from my accident really put me down. i really hope i get everything done in time. no exceptions!

i'm praying for my dad. not seeing him for another five years, plus the years we haven't seen him is so depressing. but it's all for the best, right? i'm accepting the fact that my own dad hasn't reached reality yet. after 11 years, it's still taking him this long. i just sometimes wish he realized what he had in front of him before. a loving family, a great job...he had everything. and it's been tarnished due to the fact of a devil that sucked him in. you'll always be in my heart dad. 

i'm turning eighteen in approximately four days. i'm not as excited as i thought i'd be. i remember when i was younger, i'd be awaiting for the moment of my birthday. but i guess as you get older, it just becomes another day. that's quite sad actually, ahah. unfortunately, i'm getting older. i wonder what is in store for my birthday? hint hint, lol.

alright, i'm out with this blog. going to TRY (keyword: try) to go to sleep now.

KEPS!