The key,

I wish things could be easier. I wish life had a pause and play button to fast forward and rewind to prevent and correct mistakes. I wish we had a time engine to see how the past affects our futures. I wish, I wish, I wish. Those are the two words I repeatedly said for the past week. I wish. I don't enjoy the fact that I've sunk to my ultimate low. But this has to be one of the worse states I've been. I play the fool of keeping my smile on my face and just pretending like everything is okay. I wish. I wish it could just all end, to disappear on the face of the earth. To leave all the sadness and tears behind. Life's too fucking short for all the "could've, should've, would've". Enough of all the "he said, she said" bullshit. We all gotta make this work. It just takes one step at a time.