Lately,

Things just seem to be out of place lately. I mean, I wish it wasn't this way, especially when things usually start getting on the right road again, and suddenly, it takes a whole different turn. I guess that's my destiny in life. A matter of fact, it always happens to me and I just distinguish that is my misfortune in life. I guess all I'm trying to say is that I want things back to the way it was before hand. I really didn't want things to turn out the way it is right now. It's driving me crazy. And sometimes, I just wished other people showed appreciation, or if they care, especially if it's dealing with them. I hate running to them, chasing after them, and even trying approach them, when you distinctively didn't do anything wrong, or at least intentionally wrong. But besides that, I don't enjoy the fact that I hurt someone who meant so much to me. He doesn't know how much I just want things to be alright again. Between the both of us, it's been an off and on thing for almost the whole time we've known each other. I don't enjoy the fact that we're both down because of each other. I'm scared to approach him, after what is said and done, I just don't want to push it even more. All I want is my best friend back, and just things to be normal again. And all I can say is that I'm sorry for everything, that I've said and done, and all I've put you through. I didn't mean for this to happen between us, but after everything, this is what I was afraid of. I want you to know that your very important to me, and I wouldn't trade anything. I miss you, and I just wish things were back to the way it was before.

I'm sorry, but I just really needed to get stuff off my chest.

I'm done.