Memory Lane,

"Huh, you we're an ESL student!" moments, Laughing til' water flowed out of my pants, OMGWTF moments, Iron ARMS!, My watermelon phase, Slam books, "Ew, your legs look like tree branches!", Cheeks like squirrel, Beachin' it every week, Mango's falling on my head, Throwing up on the bus, Sister sister moments, Falling off the bed because of my sister, Rollerblading, Blading down a ramp and falling on my face, Living in Waipahu and Aiea, Childhood memories at Village park, Dancing hula in 6th grade, Intermediate school dances, Sleepovers at best friends house, Breaking glass table in 8th grade, 21 stitches on right knee and right index finger, My first boy bestfriend, Chasing boys around school in intermediate, Playing hide and go seek in the dark, Charles angels, Fights with my bestfriends, Bloody knuckles, Bicycle rides around the neighbor hood, White girl vs. Filipino girl, Being dark. Lipoa gang, Church on the street, Having the Lasquites as my neighbor's and not knowing them until I moved, Moving high schools, Making fun of my grandma and her mole, Filipino family moments, Speaking in ilocano, Triple threat, Banging into the glass door at school, Falling up the stairs, Climbing over the fence = big hole in shorts, Period markings through my PE shorts, District park moments, Moanalua gardens, Big Island, Maui, Kauai, Philippines, Permanently straightening my hair, Triple threat dates at Lani's house, The manapua man, My "I-gotta-go" dance, G-building moments during summer time, Being 5th wheel, Baptism with my sister and mark, Camping out in the tent, Late night harboring, Being stuck in an elevator, "Lovah Lovah" moments w/ partner in crime, Boxing classes, Attemped skateboarding = FAILED MISSION, Bowling = throwing ball backwards, Halloween school girl, Eating competitions, Daughter mother moments, Sex talks with SBF, Running on the street while cars are coming, J-Walking and being pulled over by a cop, Jumping off the rock in Waimea, Speaking in にほんご, =), Blackbook, Humping dogs, Church camps, Mock sessions, First aid and CPR certification, Ditching TA senior year, Getting pulled over for running a red light, Korean dramas, Tough girl status, Military ball, AHS Junior prom, MOHS senior luau, MOHS senior prom, AHS Senior prom, Going home with Ivan everyday after school, Getting high scores in singing Karaoke, Singing sessions + Guitar with Jordan. Mikee's debut party, "I'm going to keep you guys in my dungeon...FOREVER!", Gossiping during lunch time, High school graduation c/o 08, Hotel parties, My first job as a service specialist at CPB, Car accident in mapunapuna, Bed resting for 2 weeks, Eight scars on my face, "Omg, the room is spinning" moments, Scary Tantalus drives, Meeting ICKEST, "I'm on top of the world", "Uhm, there's something in your teeth" moments, Fart bag, Late night chill sessions, College life, Camera whoring in the car, Being dropped off to work by best friend, Green tea bottles five times a week, Bye bye Honda civic, Late night phone conversations, Stupid cunt face bitch, Sugar highs, 10 minute laughing, Making new friends, Reuniting with old friends, and losing friends.

You changed my life,

You changed my life - w/ Sarah Geronimo and John Lloyd Cruz. I watched it last night. And OMG, it was soooooooooo cute. I watched it w/ my mommy and her best friend and we caught the 10:10 pm, which didn't finish until 12:30 am. But it was so worth it. Even if it was in tagalog and I could only catch a few parts, haha. I'm gonna try and watch the whole sequel for this movie. I suggest you watch this filipino love comedy too (:

The key,

I wish things could be easier. I wish life had a pause and play button to fast forward and rewind to prevent and correct mistakes. I wish we had a time engine to see how the past affects our futures. I wish, I wish, I wish. Those are the two words I repeatedly said for the past week. I wish. I don't enjoy the fact that I've sunk to my ultimate low. But this has to be one of the worse states I've been. I play the fool of keeping my smile on my face and just pretending like everything is okay. I wish. I wish it could just all end, to disappear on the face of the earth. To leave all the sadness and tears behind. Life's too fucking short for all the "could've, should've, would've". Enough of all the "he said, she said" bullshit. We all gotta make this work. It just takes one step at a time.

Lately,

Things just seem to be out of place lately. I mean, I wish it wasn't this way, especially when things usually start getting on the right road again, and suddenly, it takes a whole different turn. I guess that's my destiny in life. A matter of fact, it always happens to me and I just distinguish that is my misfortune in life. I guess all I'm trying to say is that I want things back to the way it was before hand. I really didn't want things to turn out the way it is right now. It's driving me crazy. And sometimes, I just wished other people showed appreciation, or if they care, especially if it's dealing with them. I hate running to them, chasing after them, and even trying approach them, when you distinctively didn't do anything wrong, or at least intentionally wrong. But besides that, I don't enjoy the fact that I hurt someone who meant so much to me. He doesn't know how much I just want things to be alright again. Between the both of us, it's been an off and on thing for almost the whole time we've known each other. I don't enjoy the fact that we're both down because of each other. I'm scared to approach him, after what is said and done, I just don't want to push it even more. All I want is my best friend back, and just things to be normal again. And all I can say is that I'm sorry for everything, that I've said and done, and all I've put you through. I didn't mean for this to happen between us, but after everything, this is what I was afraid of. I want you to know that your very important to me, and I wouldn't trade anything. I miss you, and I just wish things were back to the way it was before.

I'm sorry, but I just really needed to get stuff off my chest.

I'm done.

UPDATE:

Wow, I haven't updated my blogspot since January? I've been so busy with my usual, busy schedule and I have no time in particular to update this, but on my myspace, HA. So, I've been working like crazy. But hey, I'm making that $$$, no lie baby. And 4 days a week for 8 hours everyday is exhausting. School only takes up 2 days of my week, yet, I haven't been focusing much on school, which isn't a good thing. Sadly, I've been behind and I should be keeping up since I'm using my money for my tuition. Gah, I'm thinking about changing my major. I honestly don't think I have the damn brains to go to school for 6+ years just to become nurse. Especially how I'm doing in school now, it's ridiculous, seriously. I'm thinking about psychology or child care. Since I've been taking psychology, I've found some topics quite interesting and eye catchers. I mean, I wouldn't mind becoming a psychologist, but sadly, they don't make much money as someone who is in the medical field. And with our economic downfall, I don't think I could make it. 

Enough about school - I had a great weekend :) No lie baby. It was Aimee's 19th birthday at Krazy Karaoke, then after party at Jo's house like always. I wasn't fucked up like last time this weekend, but I had fun. I think get together's with our crew every month is a complete must. Before Aimee's birthday party, we got pierced :) Haha. And I had to rush home because it was my neice's 1st birthday party at Pearl country club. I only stayed for an hour though, being the receptionist, and helping my cousins with the goodie bags and coordinating. God damn, that was troublesome, but we got through it. After 7:30 pm, I left since Mark picked me up, and we headed down to Krazy Karaoke. We sang and cruised for an hour and a half, then chilled in the parking lot by 24 hour fitness to decide what we we're going to do. And after some pondering, we headed to Jo's house for the after party. Took birthday shots, and took pictures. Cruised it until 2:30 am, then the lasquite brother's took me home since I had to work the next morning.

Okay, I think I'm done for now. Laters <3